IShipSebaCiel

There is no bereavement way to express death. We all perceive it differently.
Some mourn for their days, others reflect and cherish.

To put it, you're affected in every aspect of your life. A piece of you died, you can't get it back. Never.

anxiety, helplessness, feeling overwhelmed,
fear, longing, anger, impatience, guilt,
depression, frustration, loneliness, feelings of unreality,
abandonment, fear of going crazy, disbelief, confusion,
impaired concentration, disorganisation, feelings of unreality,
numbness, tension, avoidance, intrusive thoughts, distress,
impaired concentration, restlessness, agitation, and a sense of meaninglessness.

Is it normal to feel this way?

How do I express my feelings to my friends?
I don't.
I didn't.
I lost everything.
I lost everyone.

I'm left with a bitter aftertaste of what was once a safe haven.

"Attention whore"
"Victim"
"Disgusting"
"I hope I never meet anyone as horrible as you again"
"Selfish"


So.

Maybe I am just acting like a victim.

I want to curl up and sleep forever.